因为陌生,所以勇敢。因为距离,所以美丽


我的处女作。。。认识我的人会很好奇, 什么启发我写Blog?? 而且还是中文版。 他是我高中毕业后就读第一所学院的同学, 读了他的Blog之后, 让我体会到中文是我们的母语, 千万不可以忘记。 也让我明白原来能将我们生活的一点一滴拿出来与认识我们的人分享,尤其如果有朝一日, 我突然失去脑中的记忆,但 至少还有个地方记载我生命中的精彩,其实还不赖。

“陌生”这个词对我来说真的很陌生。。 梦想尤其更是陌生。。 没想过活了二十六年竟然让我踏出勇敢的第一步,迈向我梦寐以求的潜水生涯。 潜水让我克服重重困难,惧高,惧深,惧海。。梦让我学会勇敢, 勇敢的踏出不同的第一步及每一步。 如今的我唯有在那深不见底的海洋, 找到我的灵魂, 找到属于我的梦想; 在那白细的沙滩上, 艳阳光下, 一望无际的碧海蓝天, 找到没有任何烦恼的天堂。Scuba Diving is my soul~ the paradise I can find~ my achievements~ the only dedication in my life~

相信我, 如果你已经克服了你最大的弱点, 那将很难会有什么事情是不能面对, 或者你做不到的, 生命也只不过是如此而已。要记住,别让你的生命里抱着遗憾, 想做就去做。 Live your life with no regrets 。。我的座右铭

勇敢对我来说比死来的简单。我很好奇有些人与其有勇气寻死,却没勇气活下去。要知道有多少在生命边缘挣扎的人,努力呼吸着只为了多活一天。 世间万物的求生毅志怎可以轻易的被挫折打败?上天要我们经过不同的磨练,放才能变得更坚强,变得更能人所不能。 之所以这样我今天还活着,活得好好的,活得比以前更好,而且还要活出灿烂的人生。

距离,让我学会懂得“珍惜”。珍惜生命,珍惜身边的朋友,家人,以及生活中的每一点每一滴。“珍惜”这两个字听起来很简单,但是有多少个人能做得到?过去的爱情让我了解, 男人口中的所谓“珍惜”也只不过是所说说而已。 在面对外界的多种诱惑,难道他真的能珍惜那曾经与他们共同进退,背后默默为他们撑着的人吗?他怎可能记得说过永远的爱我? 守候的结果,换来的却是无情的背叛。 无须苦苦强求,唯有带着破碎的心情离开。以前的那一句话已是我心中的伤口, 过了好久好久没人记得当初的那些温柔, 我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后。如果爱不曾来过,如果梦不曾碎过,如果心不曾疼过,那么我,是否还是你认识的我?今生,我们爱了,爱也走了。来生, 你是你,我是我,即使梦中遇见了,笑笑,然后擦肩而过。

爱来过,也走过,痴过也恨过,伤过才会懂,一切皆是错。泪干了,心也平静了,带着微笑再重新来过,人往往活得比男人坚强。 但是再怎么坚强的人,总有寂寞的时侯,终须要一个可以依靠的避风港。残缺的回忆 并没让我放弃追寻, 寻找属于我的那一个人。我始终相信, 该来的总会来, 该走的怎么留也留不住。也许有如句俗语:众里寻它千百度,蓦然回首,那人却在灯火阑珊处。让懂你的人爱你, 重选一份值得坚持的感情,爱只要一点点冲动就可以,了解却少些默契都不行。

距离,让我看到许许多多的美丽。 家,朋友,甚至敌人。以前的执著变成懂得学会如何放手;放心;放开;懂得放手,人生就会有桃花源。不仅如此, 从来不怎么重视家的我如今却是体会到外面的高床软枕,比也比不上家里的狗窝; 外面的鲍参翅燕, 不比妈妈的家常便饭来得香。每每回到家里, 总是有股冲动想要让妈妈抱在怀里安睡的感觉,如果让很认识我的朋友知道我有这股冲动的话, 肯定以为我烧坏了脑或是世界末日即将来临。然而,还是想说这是千真万确的。 看来还真是要感谢自己有离开家的梦, 感谢这份能让我离开家的工作, 感谢上天给机会让我明瞭 这不算太迟才体会的道理, 感谢我的一班‘猪朋狗友’,即使再忙再久失去联络, 却永远记得我的人。

美丽在不同人的心中有着不同的定义, 对我来说,美丽就是当你将最真的自己表现出来, 用真诚的心对待别人, 内在的美自然美丽。再美的人和事物都有老化的一天, 唯有内在不会随着岁月而老去。 美丽和魅力对我的定义就是,当一个男人全心投入工作时的热诚, 或是穿着围裙在厨房准备早餐的背影,最吸引我这种天生浪漫主义者*.*

距离对我来说很近,感觉对你来说很远;两颗在十字路口流连忘返的星星会在某一天相遇吗?


July 29, 2009

GIVE 100% TO A RELATIONSHIP..

A Small Story:--

A boy and girl were playing together. The boy had a collection of marbles and the girl had some sweets with her. The boy told the girl he will give her all his marbles in exchange for her sweets. The girl agreed. The boy kept the biggest and the most beautiful marble aside and gave the rest to the girl. The girl gave him all her sweets as she has promised.
That night, the girl slept peacefully but the boy couldn't sleep as he kept wondering if the girl had hidden some sweets from him the way he had hidden his best marble.

Moral of the story:-
If you don't give your hundred percent in a relationship, you'll always keep doubting if the other person has given his/her hundred percent.. This is applicable for any relationships not only love, but friendships and employer-employee relationship etc. Give your 100% to everything you do and sleep peacefully.


一则小故事:-


一个小男孩和小女孩在一起玩耍。男孩有一些收藏着的弹珠而孩则有一些糖果。男孩就对孩说他愿意把他所有的弹珠来换取她的糖果,孩也同意了。可是男孩却偷偷把最大最美的弹珠藏起来后才将其他的弹珠和孩换取她的糖果。孩则依照约定把她所有的糖果都给了男孩。当晚孩睡得很安宁,男孩却辗转难眠, 这是因为他在想:孩是不是也把最好的糖果藏起来,就如他把最美的弹珠藏起来一样。


这个故事告诉我们:-
如果我们不曾全心全力付出,那我们就会怀疑其他人是不是也像我们一样有所保留。。这不只是适于用在感情上,相对于友情,上司下属的关系也是一样。所以请把你最真诚的心力付出给你身边的每一个人和你在做的每一件事吧!

Where's The Justice ?? 天理何在 ??



2009 年 7 月 16 日- 雪洲议员政治秘书赵明福被发现离奇堕楼死于雪洲反贪污委员会总部。原本只是协助贪污案调查和证人之一的赵明福,为何出来的却是一具冷冰冰的尸体?到底他们是怎佯盘问赵明福的?这引起了全国人民和民联议员的关注和愤怒,尤其是当报导指赵明福可能是堕楼自杀时,更是让人共愤。试问一个热心于社会的优秀青年,即将和未婚妻共结连理的准爸爸,还是一个孝顺家庭父母的好孩子怎么可能说死就死?而且到目前案发后的十余天为止,反贪污委员会也没对人民和赵明福家属给于令人满意的交代。我们还有机会能知道真相吗?
自认对马来西亚政治完全不闻不问的我,也对今天所发生的事情感到悲哀,这可是对国家,对大马华人莫大的羞辱啊。难道他们真的可以如此目无法纪的为所欲为,难道天理已经让人性给埋没了吗?对于赵明福的家属和未婚妻,无不闻者辛酸,无不见者流泪,原本开开心心迎接即将来临的新生命,原本他准备辞职和未婚妻回老家共组幸福小家庭的美梦已经不能实现。有谁能体会她要如何继续未来的人生,带着赵家的骨肉走下去?可是在她眼中我们看见了勇敢和坚持,虽然明知未来的路很坎坷,但她还是坚定地宣布会把孩子生下,这也许就是爱的牺牲和力量吧!这令我真得很动容。原本告诉妈妈他会当天回家探望父母的,回来的却是在赵明福小妹和未婚妻陪同的灵车和再也不能开口说话的他。试问天底下有哪对父母能够接受这个事实?

最新消息,请游缆:-

http://justiceforbenghock.blogspot.com/

http://mt.m2day.org/2008/content/view/24939/84/



16 July 2009 - Teoh Beng Hock was invited by the Selangor MACC (Malaysian Anti-Corruption Commission) to assist in their investigation into constituency allocations. He went to the MACC Headquarters at around 5.40pm on 15th July 2009 but never came back. His body was found on the 5th floor of Wisma Masalam at 1pm on 16th July, less than 20 hours later. The MACC office is located on the 14th floor of the same building. Teoh Beng Hock was previously worked as a reporter for Sin Chew Daily and joined the office of Selangor Exco, Ean Yong Hian Wah after the 2008 General Election as the latter's political secretary. He was a helpful and diligent young man, liked by all who worked with him and cherished by those who are his good friends. The death of Teoh Beng Hock is shrouded in mystery and a slew of unanswered questions. It involved a power law enforcement agency in the country – MACC - that was supposed to protect the interests of the people and the country. There have been many police custodial deaths but this is the first case of death in the custody of the MACC. Are we able to know the truth?

For More Information:-

http://justiceforbenghock.blogspot.com/

http://mt.m2day.org/2008/content/view/24939/84/



明福未婚妻祭文:- 明福,你没有任何的交待就匆匆离开了我。你说,我们还有很多事没有完成,有很多地方还没有去,你还说这一辈子的路都会陪我一起走下去。现在的我该怎么办?怎样才能再见到你?我的脑海里一直都想着你,念着你……我只要你回来,回到我的身边……这几天我一直等你,但是却让我失望了。我只想知道你现在过得好不好,痛不痛……?请你别让我等那么久好吗?就让我再见你一次,一次就好。当哭泣以及呼唤都无法叫醒你的时候,我已经不能不相信你已经永远的离开了我。再多的不舍,今天还是得与你告别了,我答应你,我会好好的活下去。但是,你一定要在我身边陪伴我,陪我一起照顾他。明福,虽然今世我与你的缘分已尽了。但是,我希望,如果有下一辈子的话,我很想与你再续我们今生的缘分。你安心上路吧,愿你安息。

Fiancee's Tribute to Beng Hock:-

Beng Hock, you left me without saying any last words. You said we still have a lot of things to accomplish together, that we have not been to many places before. You said you will always walk this life together with me. What should I do now? How can I see you again? I miss you, I have been thinking about you! I just want you to come back, come back to my side...For the past few days I have been waiting for you, but you did not appear. I just want to know how are you now, are you in pain? Please do not let me wait for too long... I just want to see you just once... just once is good enough! When all the crying cannot wake you up, I still cannot believe you have to leave me forever. No matter how much I do, we still have to say goodbye today. I promise you, I will live my life well. But you must stay by my side, you must be with me to bring up our child. Beng Hock, although our destiny this life has ended, I hope that in the next life, we will continue our life together as husband and wife. Please go in peace, I pray that you will find rest.

July 27, 2009

我的潜水录 II - Refreshment Dives

海鲜晚餐 (团体照) 登嘉楼唐人街


2008年四月 - 因为工作的关系,从考到潜水执照的这一年里我根本没办法参与任何一个潜水活动,直到我的潜水伙伴们通知我说他们已经参加了五月的热浪岛潜水时,已经太迟了因为每一个活动都有限制参加人数。虽然我好想去(很难得能碰到我们4个能一起潜水 - 我,Toon, Henzing 和在上海工作的Willoon)但也只好和另一个朋友Adelena报名四月的热浪岛潜水。

April 2008 - Ever since i got the Open Water Diver license, this is the first trip i can participate besides the practical test in Perhentian Island which was like a year ago. It was too late when my buddies informed me about their participation in May Redang trip as it's already fulled though i really wish to go (hardly 4 of us can go diving together - me, Toon, Henzing and Willoon that based in ShangHai). I therefore joined the April trip with a friend Adelena, we knew each other during open water.

Pool side view in the morning

Sutra Beach Resort - Kuala Terengganu

整个团里, 除了我,Adelena 和教练, 其他的都是外籍潜水员。就因为如此我和 Adelena驾了大约八个小时的车程抵达登嘉楼后,幸运的入住比较不错的酒店 Sutra Beach Resort. 如果时间允许的话,我还真的想去享受一下游泳和在泳池边休息聊天。 可惜当我们抵达那里时已经是黄昏,晚餐后就各自回房休息了,因为明天一早还要启程到船头前往热浪岛潜水去。

This is not considered as big group with total of 7 divers (included my dive instructor) and besides 3 of us, the rest are all westerners from different countries. After 8 hours drive from Penang Island early morning, we arrived at Sutra Beach Resort in the evening, went for seafood dinner in Terengganu China Town after resting a while. It was a bit late after get back from dinner so that's why we do not have the chance to enjoy swim in the pool. How i wish to relax by the pool side and having some beers. Well, we gotto rest for early departure next morning to jetty to catch the boat to Redang Islang.

Briefing by Mr. Fong - Our dive instructor 要下水啦,好紧张 - gearing up


Preparing to enter ...................................... Gather at the surface before descending

前往热浪岛途中,我们将在Baby West Rock的潜点做第一个check out dive. 刚下水的十五分钟我还是在忙着调整浮力, 毕竟已经一年没潜水了, 还好并不是很难掌握。 这一个潜点底下大部分是沙床,主要也是方便当我们不平衡失去控制时不会撞向或踩到珊瑚。当我们准备好后便继续往前游,终于开始体会到一点享受潜水的快感,比起之前考试时当然有所不同。没了压力自然就轻松些,开心些,看到的海底生物也格外美丽。

On our way to Redang Island, we did our check out dive at Baby West Rock. For the first 15mins i was busy adjusting my buoyancy control and luckily it's sands bed at the bottom so that we won't be banging or stepping on live corals when we're out of control. It's been a year ago since my open water test, and I'm glad it did'nt take me too long to settle down. As we swam forward, i'm getting more and more enjoying diving in the sea, looking for marine lifes that i ever seen before, it was so much different compared to the previous trip.


Jelly fish ........................ Old couple and Adelena on top deflating air from BC


It's me!!!!! ...............................................soft corals

这个潜大约用了三十六分钟,随后便在热浪岛吃午餐。我们入住的度假屋可说是我有史以来住过最残旧的度假屋之一,设备也普普通通,只有冷气睡房和小餐厅,不过还好有热水器可以冲凉。接下来我们便出发到Terumbu Kili 和 Pulau Pinang Wreck 潜点继续潜水。这也是我第一次经历到海底水流,虽然并不是很强烈但也足以让我们游得上气不接下气,我终于明白是时候该换一对好的脚蹼了。

This dive last about 36 minutes, then we approached to Redang Island for lunch break and check in to Mutiara Beach resort which is a lousiest resort i ever stayed in. The facilities are just air-conditioning room, hot shower and a cafeteria. After lunch, we went to Terumbu Kili and Pulau Pinang Wreck for diving. This is also the first time i encountered slow current that was exhausting enough for us to fight through it. I finally realised it's time to change an expensive and good fin - Bio Fin.


Giant Puffer .....................................School of Fish


Schhool of Fish .............................Me and Adelena on the surface


Snap shot from the boat - table corals......................... New Jetty Link to Private Beach



Me and Adelena (Check out the resort behind us) ............Me and Adelena evening shot at the jetty

接下来的两天,我们分别在Pulau Ling, Bidong Wreck, Downtown, 和 Batu Cupak 潜水。 我们也见到了小魔鬼鱼,海龟, 鳗鱼, 和小鲨鱼。由于其中一个潜水时我不小心弄伤了耳膜,所以没办法做最后一个潜,只好留在船上等队员回来。最令人气愤的是他们遇见了罕见的 Hammer head Parrot Fish,气死我了。晚上我们的晚餐是自助烧烤,玩得还蛮尽兴的。

We were doing diving at Pulau Ling, Bidong Wreck, Downtown, and Batu Cupak for the next 2 days. During the dives, we saw few different marine lifes such as stingrays, moray eels, black tip baby shark, turtle, school barracudas and many more as pictures shown below. Due to the inproper equilization, i have to missed one of the dives and resting on the boat while waiting for the rest to come back from diving. The sad part is the group saw Hammer head parrot fish during the dive that i missed and this is rare to sight in East Coast dive sites. We were having BBQ dinner at night and generally it was quiet happy.



Types of Corals ...................................... Spagetti Worm



Rocks & Hard Corals ...................................Giant Clam


Soft Corals
..........................................Hammer Head Parrot Fish



Christmas Tree Worm ....................................................Soft Corals



BBQ Dinner
............................... Light & Easy Night